Dear Carol,
When they invited me to do LILIA! as their season opener, I
wasn't going to say NO to 15 performances in Vancouver. But
when I saw the space configuration, I worried. Lilia! is
staged for a proscenium, maybe a thrust - NOT
for in-the-round or alley. The first two days here I had
intense rehearsals with one of the theatre staff
members familiar with performing in the space. We restaged
the entire show. The opening speech "To be nominated for an
Academy Award for Lilies of the Field is really lovely . . .
" I deliver as I'm walking through the audience, down the
aisle steps onto the stage. The hardest point to get was
that the audience was okay with my back to them sometimes.
Initially I found myself spinning like a top in mid-sentence
so everyone in the theatre could see me for every sentence.
My "consulting director" got me to let go of that. He
worked me from morning to night for the two days - reworking
muddy areas where the energy was getting dispersed in the
room rather than staying focused with me. We reblocked,
etc.
He got me picking up the pace, picking up cues, making more
immediate transitions - whew! He was tireless. I've never
worked with anyone on the show for that many hours
non-stop. (I haven't been able to afford it since people
either volunteered their time with me and I didn't want to
take too much, or else I paid them hourly). It was quite a
luxury, though exhausting.
By opening night, I let go of all the pacing notes, etc. and
just focused on my breath. That was all. I sensed this
slowed me down a bit, because I took the time to take
breaths when I otherwise might have plowed through. At the
end there were three curtain calls. Usually there are just
two. The applause was very strong and very long - no
standing ovation. There was a reception afterwards and the
Artistic Director of Pacific Theatre said he was so sorry
that I couldn't stay in Vancouver because he would love to
act on stage with me (he's in at least one show per
season).
I thanked him for choosing my play. I told him most
artistic directors are interested through word-of-mouth and
the reviews. But once they read the play, they don't want
to do it. He said, "I would have been crazy not to
pick your play. It was a no-brainer. When Ian (my fellow-castmate
from TWELFE NIGHT) said what a nice person you are to work
with, gave us the press packet and I saw the reviews, then I
read the script, there was no question in my mind that we
had to do it!" I said, "Thank you for having the insight to
perceive in the play what not everyone picks up on!"
He said he could see how some artistic directors might be
turned off by the religious element in the script
(references to God, prayer, Deuteronomy and Elisha). He
said maybe those artistic directors aren't familiar with
their audience. But he said it wasn't a problem for him
because the mission of the theatre is: "to serve Christ in
our community by creating excellent theatre with artistic,
spiritual, relational and financial integrity."
I had been a bit wary of the notion of doing this for a
"Christian" theatre company. Because the show is way too
universal to be pegged a "Christian" show. I was so
grateful when three women came up to me after the show last
night and said to me, "We have a question for you. Are you
Jewish?" I said, "No. Why, are you?" They said, "Yes." I
said, "I'm so glad you came because I didn't want this show
to be exclusively for Christian audiences." They said, "You
mean because this theatre is located in a church?" I said,
"Yes," I didn't mention the mission statement of the
theatre, which they may not have known. They wanted to know
which part of my family was Jewish and so on. I told them
that the Jewish members of my family were mostly
"assimilated" by the time they immigrated here. That my
Jewish great-grandfather made sure his three daughters were
baptized Catholic because that was the surest way he thought
they would succeed in the Austro-Hungarian Empire. These
women said, "Yes, the same with our families who immigrated
to Canada. Many of the members converted to Christianity.
The first reason was to succeed. The second was for
survival. We hope that our grandchildren will convert back
to Judaism.
Board members of the theatre thanked me and said they were
so proud of this show opening their season. The publicist
told me how proud she was that Pacific Theatre was doing
this show. For the first time people are asking me, "Did
you ever find love?" (referring to "I would have to marry
for love, Grandmother.")
There were a number of reviewers there opening night
(Friday) and more came on Saturday night. The Saturday
matinee was very responsive, and at the curtain call quite a
few people got to their feet. Saturday night was exciting!
The minute the lights came up for the curtain call nearly
the whole theatre - and it was a full house - 120 people -
leapt to their feet and were calling out. There was a man
in the front row who kept yelling "Huge! Huge!" I wasn't
quite sure what he meant, but I felt his enthusiasm.
Now I have three days off - Sunday through Tuesday. Back on
stage Wednesday. I must say, I am soooo grateful for this
breath work you have taught me. An actress who has
frequently worked with the artistic director of the theatre
said to me afterwards, "I love the way you use your hands.
Oh no! I hope that doesn't distract you onstage now that
I've said that! Ron (the artistic director) forbids us to
read the reviews or to listen to anything about our
performances positive or negative, because he said that it
will take us out of the scene on stage - even for a moment
we'll become self-conscious thinking of what someone said."
I thought, "Not with the breath! A thousand self-conscious
thoughts can come, but they cannot harm the performance.
They are just reminders to go back to the breath." I should
have said that to her. But I felt particularly grateful at
that moment for the technique which allows tremendous
freedom and takes me out of my head. There were moments on
stage over the last couple of days where I was not only
focused on my breath, but I was focused on breath. Like I
could feel all of us breathing together. I think that was
particularly the case during last night's performance - when
everyone jumped to their feet in an instant.
I am so grateful for the opportunity to continue putting
into practice what you teach.
Much love,
Libby